Hi 'readers' I wanted to write here that I am alive and very uninspired to post things here, yes its another uninspired phase. I must suck as a blogger. I have been just going to uni and staring at my white wall that I've just recently stuck some photographs on it. The thing is, I don't really know what the thing is. I'm just lacking something,sparkle. I having been painting though and writing on my journals and diaries and sketchbooks and I am a mess and perfectionist. I buy all of these wicked agendas and skechbooks aimed to fill them with great work. But from the second I write on its page I immediately dislike the content I have written,also the handwriting itself and I feel like starting over on a different page, different journal and its never good enough and I tell myself..Stef you are neurotic. So I have all of these unfinished work and no place to stock these journals hah I must be really pathetic. Anyway I've shot some outfit images I'll be posting tomorrow. Today I will just watch a film, at least it will stop me from thinking too much.

Today I was talking to this guy and he kept looking deep into my eyes and talking all excited, at the beginning of the talk I was really paying attention but I have this problem, that when the person talk too much and I have only the option to listen, smile and emit sounds like ohh, huh, hmm then I start to get a bit embarrased and all of the sudden I find myself not paying attention to anything he is saying but analysing and thinking that if I look too much into his eyes it will be odd, but in the other hand if I look somewhere else I will be rude and it will be as if I am not interested in what he is saying..which maybe can be the reason I got distracted in the first place. Gosh enoughh hh its so cold now. I hate when the weather is a bit warm and theres sunshine and you think oh summer is coming and then the next day is foggy and cold its like 'the weather' is saying..summer? haha not yet you fool that was just a 'free sample'.

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  1. God I hope this doesn't sound creepy, but last month I decided, to get inspired, to go through your entire blog, up until your first post, and I was SO inspired by all of the posts from recently and from a long time ago. Your blog is one of the few who inspire me to be creative, different, and lovely. Is it possible to be inspired by yourself?

    And I totally get what you mean about people talking too much. That's why I abhor small talk.

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  2. Did you ever feel like Ester (Sylvia Plath) from the Bell Jar? Because for some reason you remind me a lot of her. I think it's the mood and feel I get from your pictures and blogging, but I like it.

    Anyway, I hope you have better days! It might just be the weather and lack of sunlight (vitamin c) which causes you to feel more tired, bored, and gloomy. :)

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    1. Yeah I can relate a bit to her not totaly though ha;
      Thank you I guess the weather is one of the causes for sure, well at least I hope so..it would be bad feeling like that at summer time xx

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  3. Eu amo seu blog!

    Eu gostaria de saber onde você pega as imagens dos filmes que você indica, como esse do Stephen King.

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  4. I get that way with my sketchbooks too! I keep buying them with all sorts of plans in mind and then get up to two pages before I lose interest. It's so frustrating!

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  5. I do the same thing with notebooks all the time
    x

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  6. i always love your pictures! so beautiful :)

    yeah.. i really hope that summer comes soon!

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  7. I think you're very funny and your thoughts are so recognizable.. Yet I think that you should know: you're worth it, just like l'oréal paris :p

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  8. Dreamy photos they looks like film to me.
    I do love your random, rambly posts. Haha yes I do think that is slightly neurotic but definitely not uncommon. I too have long strings of thoughts like that but I don't think I've really put them into words before, probably because of our school writing lessons, it's been dinned into my head that everything should be written in a clear & concise manner!
    Life etc.

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  9. it's like hearing my own thoughts.. i'm in one of them phases myself, let's hope something gives us that sparkle

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  10. free sample! best description ever!

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  11. very cool shots ! you're such a beauty !
    xx

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  12. You do not suck as a blogger, I can tell you that much. I get these blocks to. Then I just take a walk, listen to music and try not to think about it.

    Love what you're doing.

    Frame Discovery.com

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  13. Oh, the first picture is so simple yet so stunning. I'm totally infatuated with your photography. And I love you writing long text posts, even if they may seem pointless to you. I always get that "Me too, oh my God, me too!"-feeling when I read them. Please never stop blogging because your blog is by far my favourite.

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  14. Adore your vintage collection :) http://peppy-owl.blogspot.com/

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