Sick



One nightmare night. For a long time I had forgotten how is to actually feel sick. Unfortunately I was cruelly reminded. Taking pills, feeling nauseous and the worst thing in the world - vomiting. Everytime I get sick I tell myself to do everything possible before vomiting. But no matter how hard you try, it is uncontrollable. Sooner or later you will vomit. There is nothing more disgusting and unpleasant than vomiting. (there is actually, - die suffocated on your own vomit). Only when I get sick, I realize that is really bad being sick. When I was younger I used to wish so bad to get sick in order to skip classes and be loved and take cared of by my whole family, and to get gifts and everything I wanted to eat. But when you are actually sick things are not great as you have pictured. You will bunk college and get treated well, but you might end up in a hospital and all the gifts or great food in the world won't make you feel better. When I was younger I was hospitalized twelve times with pneumonia. After vomiting the whole night also made think about people that actually force themselves to purge for the purpose of weigh loss . Honestly?

Now I lie here slowly sipping tea, feeling like a retiree.

19 comments:

  1. oof, i am sick too. it is not fun. i have a bad cold virus with a sore throat and inflamed sinuses.ick. get well soon!

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  2. 12 times with pneumonia? that's crazy. i feel the same way about sickness too, when it hits you everything feels like death warmed up. get well soon.

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  3. 12 times pneumonia? O.o I luckily never had a pneumonia. However, get well soon!

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  4. love the picture !
    xx

    http://adriennestyle.blogspot.com/

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  5. I hope you get well soon!:) I hate being sick and everything I fall really ill, I start to remember how lucky I am when I'm healthy and it makes me grateful.

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  6. awwwwww...hopefully u'll get better soon.... :)

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  7. twelve times with pneumonia! You poor thing, feel better

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  8. get well soon!
    lots of love from germany

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  9. It is one of the worst things. i Cringe at the thought.
    Hope you feel better.

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  10. Poor thing! Get well soon!

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  11. Sick but still charming. Even from behind.

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  12. I was wondering if you feel better. I hope you get well soon Stef :)

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  13. hope you get better. I'd love if you check out my blog, im new.
    (No spam intention)

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  14. I'm so sorry for you being ill :(
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  15. I adore your photography & love your words. What camera(s) do you shoot with?

    xx
    http://allykayler.blogspot.com

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  16. I hope you will feel better soon. I have been sick so many times the last couple of years and eventually it made me realize how bad it is for those that have a disease, perhaps even uncureable. Count your blessings and get well soon. Try not to give it too much thought and don't feel sorry for yourself when you want to vomit again. That's how I do it when I get sick. xoLove your blog.

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  17. Ooooh, do I know that feeling lol. Wanting to be sick and actually being sick are two verrrrry different things. Just hope you feel better soon!

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